The Journey, Tarot, Ostara, Book of MoonsMarch 14, 2007 8:30 pm

I came across this very informative website
http://www.collegewicca.com/

Choosing a name: http://www.collegewicca.com/wiccafiles/name.html
You may also try listing in a notebook all your traits, plus, on a separate sheet, all the traits you’d like to have. Go through these and don’t rule out anything because it sounds funny or not fancy enough. You want to be true to yourself, not give in to sounding grand to others.

BoS: http://www.collegewicca.com/wiccafiles/BOS.html
Tarot. I’ll write down what spread I used (usually Celtic Cross, but it sometimes varies), the "book meaning" of each card, my own impressions of the meanings of each card, then I write a page or so linking the meanings together. I leave a page blank in between each entry. This way I can go back and fill in the actual result. If I interpreted the cards as meaning I’ll have a really awful day, but it turns out fine, I’ll write it down. Then I can pull out the cards again and re-think my interpretation.
To start with a Book of Shadows, people usually first write a book dedication on the inside cover or first page. It can be a poem, a statement…anything that says, "I dedicate this book to *insert Deity belief here* in my study of *insert definition of personal religion here*. May it prove safe and honorable. So mote it be." You can write a full book dedication ritual and write this first dedication into your book during that ritual. Whatever you think it takes to give your book a "sacred" feel to it will work.

Meditation: http://www.collegewicca.com/BOSfiles/meditation.html
People meditate for various reasons. Some use it to get in tune with the Earth, some use it as a de-stresser, some use it as a way to maintain their magickal skills (like anything, magick does take practice no matter how "natural" it comes to a person), and some just like to clear their minds.
On the first session, set it for five minutes. However you choose to meditate, try to hold it for that amount of time. If you break your meditation before time is up, don’t worry. Put it away for the rest of the day, and when you try it the next day (prefereably at about the same time of day–morning, afternoon, or evening–though not necessarily at the exact same hour) lower your amount of time set to however long you were able to hold it on Day 1. If you can make it to 8 miutes before breaking, but the next day can’t make it to 9 minutes, go back and practice for 8 minutes again until you can easily go for that length of time.
beginning with the "train of thought" meditations where you just let your mind go its merry way and you "listen in" as if you are a third person overhearing a conversation. When you feel you have the "train of thought" method under your belt, try moving to a single thought. For example, assume you decide to meditate on the subject, "Apple." Don’t just focus on the word, but also visualize an apple, how it feels, tastes, and smells. When you are comfortable (it does take practice!) finally narrow your mind down to nothing at all. Don’t think, just feel. Another method to try is to hold a stone and use it as your focus. For lack of a better phrase, try to "become one with the stone." You can do the same with staring into a fire/candle flame, looking out your window at nature, into a body/pool of water, or at an animal. These techniques tend to bring people closer to the mental state needed for scrying. See what you have around you and what works best.
Activities as meditation: In the same manner as exercise, there are other activities that people find good for meditation. Journal writing, sewing, painting/drawing, gardening, and even day dreaming are a few ways to clear your mind and relax. Meditation does not necessarily have to take the form of chanting wordlessly in dark rooms.
Purification: http://www.collegewicca.com/BOSfiles/purification.html
If you choose to bathe, try taking a quick shower to get rid of the grime first, then use the bath to rid yourself of that "mental" impurity. When you’re done, pull the plug and stay in the tub as it drains. When in doubt, if you want to go bare minimum, wash your face and hands with cold water, and head off to your circle.
Tarot: http://www.collegewicca.com/BOSfiles/tarot.html
shuffle the cards a total of 15 times between readings to cleanse them. (I also like to give them a thorough cleansing and consecration once a month at the full moon, and keep them in a protective bag made out of a natural fiber.) The first three times I shuffle, I feel air rushing through my arms and hands, through "pores" in the cards, and blowing all old (especially negative) energy from previous readings out of the cards. I shuffle three more times feeling my hands as flames, burning the old energy out of the cards. Three more times for water, washing the "ashes" and traces of energy from the cards, and then three times for earth, feeling the cards as solid and glowing with new, natural, non-human energy. Finally, I shuffle three more times, imagining I’m filling them with my own essence in the form of a pure white light.
Leave a blank page after each entry so you can go back later and fill in how the spread related to real events. I usually write the date, the spread I used, the cards laid out, their basic, short meanings (which I usually just copy from the little booklet that comes with the deck), and my interpretation.

Journal Topics: http://www.collegewicca.com/BOSfiles/journals.html
-What does "Witch" mean to you?
-My future goals within Paganism.
-Are there traditions you like? Dislike? Why?
-Why be a Pagan, anyway?
-How do you feel about spell crafting?
-What do you think separates Wicca (Druidism, Asatru, etc.) from other Pagan religions? Other religions in general?
-Write about the state of Paganism today…is it too marketed? Are there too many "kids"? Are covens becoming obsolete?
-Compare and contrast Pagan authors that you have recently read.
-What specific Deities do you pray to and why?
-What do you think happens to you when you die?
-Do you believe in fate, or do we make it up as we go?
-Do animals reincarnate?
-Can humans incarnate as animals? If so, why? If not, why?
-Is hexing, cursing, black magick ever ok? If so when? If not why?
-Explain your Craft/Magickal/Working/Sacred name if you have one.
-Do you think that you have to have a Craft name? Why or why not?
-Is there a difference between Wicca and Witchcraft? Explain.
-If we believe in reincarnation and Christians believe in a one-shot life, what happens to them when they die?
-What is your utopia?

Ostara Rituals: http://www.collegewicca.com/collegefiles/solitaryostara.html
Take a symbol of something that’s hindering you outside before the sun rises and drop it or bury it without looking at it. Then turn toward the horizon as the sun rises and hervest the first flower you see. Dry it and carry it with you as a charm for hope.
If you do a ritual, try it outside if it’s warm enough. Keep it simple…meditate under a tree

Consider trying a yin yang tarot spread: http://www.learntarot.com/yinyang.htm 

Tarot 4:44 am

Set 1 - Whether or not the job could be emotionally fulfilling; whether or not the job could be financially fulfilling; what qualities I could gain from the job

Set 2 - Another possible job prospect; supporting qualities needed for that job 

Jobs to explore - waitressing, inventory, gas station

Waitressing
How my first impression came across- Temperance - feeling centered & secure
Emotionally fulfilling- The High Priestess - letting what is there flower, being passive, becoming calm
Financially fulfilling- The Empress - welcoming abundance; having more than enough, feeling rich
Qualities I could gain- Two of Pentacles - keeping everything in balance, coping with demands, getting everyone to work together; adapting quickly; seeing the humor in the situation, whistling while you work

Inventory
How my first impression came across- Page of Pentacles - achieve tangible results, concentrate on what’s effective, seek abundance (bad thing in an interview, heh), establish credibility, have faith in others
Emotionally fulfilling- Knight of Swords - can set aside emotional factors, reasons clearly, analyzes information well
Financially fulfilling- Nine of Pentacles - achieving a comfortable lifestyle, enjoying the finer things of life, enjoying leisure
Qualities I could gain- Judgment - the ideas presented in this card lead me to believe that I’d end up looking for another, more fulfilling job

Gas station
How my first impression came across- Judgment - getting off the fence, making a fresh start, knowing what you must do
Emotionally fulfilling- Queen of Cups - loving, tenderhearted, intuitive, spiritual
Financially fulfilling- Ace of Pentacles - seeing efforts rewarded, accepting the tools at hand, being practical, knowing the situation is stable
Qualities I could gain- Eight of Pentacles - producing steady results, increasing expertise, approaching a task methodically

Another possible job prospect- Knight of Wands - charming, has a can-do attitude, daring/foolhardy, adventurous, passionate
Supporting qualities needed for that job- The Fool - having faith, being true to yourself, beginning
Emotionally fulfilling- Page of Pentacles - make your plans real, work with what you have, seek abundance, become secure
Financially fulfilling- The Devil - experiencing bondage, getting & spending, overindulging the senses, forgetting the spiritual, experiencing limitations, doubting

Overall, it seems as though the waitressing job would be the most fulfilling, based on this reading. Gas station being the second most preferrable.  

Learn Tarot 3:53 am


Exercise 4.1 - Celtic Cross Spread

Spend a few minutes looking at the Celtic Cross Section so you understand how it is set up. Don’t worry about memorizing anything. The goal is simply to get comfortable with the information.

The smaller cross represents the heart of the matter - what is most central to you at the time of the reading. It is the hub around which the wheel of your life is turning. 

The larger cross consists of two lines that overlay the minicross. The horizontal line (H) shows time moving from your past on the left into your future on the right. The vertical line (V) is your consciousness moving from your unconscious on the bottom to your conscious mind on the top. Together these six cards give you a snapshot of your inner and outer environment at the time of a reading.

Card 9. This position traditionally means "hopes and fears," but I also use it as a lesson or guidance card

Now, lay out ten cards of your choice using this spread. Read the page for each position one by one. Think about the meaning each card takes on because it falls in a certain position. You will learn more about this later, but just speculate for now.

Celtic Cross Positions: http://www.learntarot.com/ccpos1.htm

Interpretation: http://www.learntarot.com/ccross.htm 

So, I performed a general reading, & this is what I got:

Position 1: Primary Factor - Queen of Cups - guided by the heart, trusts an inner sense of what is true, appreciates the deeper meanings of life
2: Reinforcing Factor - Two of Cups - letting yourself be drawn in, moving toward, feeling a positive response
3: Deeper Meaning - Page of Pentacles - make your plans real, mold the physical world, use your body, experience nature; stop daydreaming, go out to meet success
4: Past Influences/Unresolved factor/Quality to Let Go - Two of Swords - keeping another at arm’s length, closing your eyes to what’s going on, avoiding an unpleasantness, feeling afraid to act, staying stuck
5: Attitudes & Beliefs/Conscious influence/Goal or purpose - Temperance - Balance, health; avoiding excess; achieving equilibrium; enjoying well-being
6: Future/Approaching influence/Unresolved factor/Quality to embrace - Knight of Cups - Perhaps I should try to avoid feelings of introversion & excessive negative emotion. has big ideas that come to nothing; gets melancholy and depressed; can’t face unpleasantness; is driven to self-examination
7: You as you Are/Could be/Present yourself/See yourself - Nine of Cups - Wish fulfillment, satisfaction, sensual pleasure: the descriptions seem to fall into all of the categories (are, could be, etc), and I like it :)
8: Outside environment/Another’s point of view/Another’s expectations/You as others see you - The Fool - Outside environment could be referring to the new journey of living on my own, because that’s certainly surrounding me. I’m not surprised to think others see me as ‘the fool’, though- beginning, being spontaneous, having faith, embracing folly. I worry that this will keep me from getting a job :/
9: Guidance (different approach)/Key Factor (what you need to know)/ Hopes & fears (your ideal)/Overlooked factor - Queen of Wands - Seems as though this card would suggest going for the waitressing job as well, since it seems to be a very social card.
10: Outcome: Overall/Inner state/Actions/Effects - King of Wands - an upbeat attitude may lead to inspiring others, as well as charisma being gained from being a waitress

The Journey 2:34 am

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Your Family
Do you have any other pagan members of your family? Is there any significant pagan-oriented history of your ancestors and family? If neither of the above apply, what do you hope to leave behind for the next generation concerning your path and knowledge?

I don’t have any pagan family members, as far as I know.
In regards to what I hope to teach my kids- first off that religion is a freedom of choice. Otherwise, to respect their environment, enjoy it & the people in it; and to repect the idea that a mind & soul can reach far beyond "normal" functioning.